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Apron Garden Birds And Sky

My father was the butcher of Marrakech
known in market and minaret
I studied his butchery every day
and roughly learned anatomy 

A muscled stomach of a man
looms above a ewe brought for Halal meat
standing to one side he studies her eyes
rolling, whitening and the tendons grow taut
on her throat like a clothesline
tongue pushes out in a bleat
now he strikes!
the cleaver moistly crunching 
the sound of rainstones
under dusty donkey hooves
her tongue's final alarm
runs into the blood bucket 
This is not art but astronomer's precision
he takes a step back, proud

Then one typical day, a typical slaughter
he wipes the blade on his belly
and suddenly a vision:
veins start to bleed up 
through the apron to be born
a glistening newly arrived creature
oh, how life is fire, is amaranthine
contagion, molecules exhaled, bleated
hopscotch here
now here, into the bloodstream of a thousand
thousands

As hard as my father tried
there is no death
just endless shuffling 
the sheep released, now in me 
the apron, the garden
the birds and sky
The First Ship From Safi

A few red dots on my saffron skirt
and I was a woman
father soon found out
and convicted me to Hijab and our home
to forget prowling the souq 
jasmine and honeysuckle 
boys and laughter
sentenced me to study my mother
wavering through the rooms
her bruised eyes whitening
a tablecloth forgot on a clothesline
Time and again
I tried to fortify her, unveil her
and when he'd suspect my defiance
would enlighten us with the fists 
of the most devout Muslim of Marrakech

My cheeks are dry, my lip is wet
I memorize the voice of the door
he crunches shut like a cleaver
and I study mother one last time
trembling at me from her clothesline 
before resuming the chores
No longer can I stand this
fire, amaranth coursing through me
Africa stretching out, unetherized 
wait for nightfall
then a truck
then boarding the first ship
bound anywhere from Safi
to put the butchery of men 
together again

 

they found the 350-bed hospital abandoned, except for about 20 patients... many of the staff and caregivers who likely had been exposed had fled... the only hint of hygiene was a torn garbage bag on the rusting operating table